Ellie was clearly not happy discussing these matters and that gave Aziraphale a twinge. But he was glad he'd asked, although her answers did bring on a hint of vertigo. For millennia, he'd got himself through all sorts of uncomfortable situations and discomfiting realisations by reminding himself, sometimes at great difficulty, that they were all God's creatures, ultimately, even people like...well. Of course. In a sense. And yet also, when it came right down to it, their own. They had to be, for free will to have meaning--and it did. It had taken him so long to acknowledge it, and yet once he had...
So could it be? Was there truly a creature who was not? "I knew of the name, abstractly. But not the full story. So Lucifer tried so hard to be original, and yet wound up with a subcreation." Aziraphale paused for a moment. "Yet he didn't seem...unusually deficient, if you take my meaning. You'll have to pardon me, I'm a bit shocked that the daevas would have turned out so well. Relatively speaking. Er." He thought for another moment, processing another bit of the revelation. "And at first he treated them well, and then...I don't suppose you would happen to know how they disappointed him? I suppose what I'm getting at is," and here he lowered his voice significantly, "you know perhaps better than anyone that we all can think for ourselves, although the...propaganda...was often otherwise. That we can reach conclusions and make choices that are, well, not in the official manual, so to speak. You'd probably lose respect for me if you knew how frightened by that I once was. Do you think he's different?"
Once he'd started, best not to stop. "I wonder if he's acting under orders in trying to appoint himself her guardian. Or if he thinks it would please his master but took the initiative himself. And if so, what awaits him if it turns out he was wrong?" Or if we thwart him good.
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Date: 2007-10-29 06:52 am (UTC)So could it be? Was there truly a creature who was not? "I knew of the name, abstractly. But not the full story. So Lucifer tried so hard to be original, and yet wound up with a subcreation." Aziraphale paused for a moment. "Yet he didn't seem...unusually deficient, if you take my meaning. You'll have to pardon me, I'm a bit shocked that the daevas would have turned out so well. Relatively speaking. Er." He thought for another moment, processing another bit of the revelation. "And at first he treated them well, and then...I don't suppose you would happen to know how they disappointed him? I suppose what I'm getting at is," and here he lowered his voice significantly, "you know perhaps better than anyone that we all can think for ourselves, although the...propaganda...was often otherwise. That we can reach conclusions and make choices that are, well, not in the official manual, so to speak. You'd probably lose respect for me if you knew how frightened by that I once was. Do you think he's different?"
Once he'd started, best not to stop. "I wonder if he's acting under orders in trying to appoint himself her guardian. Or if he thinks it would please his master but took the initiative himself. And if so, what awaits him if it turns out he was wrong?" Or if we thwart him good.